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advent journal: ice

ice

the rain came late
this afternoon
actually more of
a drizzle or mist
just enough
to coat the streets
before the temperature
drops below freezing

which means
we will wake to
a coating of ice
that will impair
our travel and leave
some of us stranded
or feeling fearful

I wonder
if it was a night
like this when those
who do such things
decided ICE
would be a good
acronym to
name themselves

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: aging

Tonight’s post is a video, since I have spent a good part of the afternoon and evening working on a music video which will be released on the streaming services on my birthday, Friday, December 12. I am posting here for you, and you can also find in on YouTube, if you would like to share it. You can also purchase the single on my Bandcamp page, along with a couple of other goodies. The lyric is below the video.

aging

the sunshine paints the steeple
at the dimming of the day
the light falls long and rich
and then it’s gone
it’s just another tuesday
another ordinary blues day
that feels like a lifetime
but doesn’t last for long

my joints play the percussion
orchestrating a discussion
of what it means to weather
all these years
there’s more to growing older
than bending down and getting colder
under the weight of a lifetime
with far too many tears

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m aging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging

the sun drops down the steeple
to welcome in the evening
the friendship of the shadows
brings me home
the distance of my youth
has grown into a nearer truth
I’m in love with a lifetime
that doesn’t last for long

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m engaging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging

life is holy and life is quick
the candle burns at both ends of the wick
years fly by at the speed of days
yet there’s still so far to go

I’m aging
I’m stumbling through the mystery
I’m a walking breathing history
that’s sneaking up on seventy
i’m engaging
my life is not diminishing
though I’m closer to the finishing
it’s the richness I’m relishing
I’m aging
oh, yes, I’m aging
gratefully aging

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: brain freeze

brain freeze

I have spent all day
trying to get warm

it has felt as though
the freeze was coming

from inside my bones
and working its way

through my skin
to join the frigid air

that has surrounded me
like a custom suit

no snow or ice
just freezing cold

there is probably
something else to say

but those thoughts
have yet to defrost

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: exact change

This week’s sermon is built around Matthew’s description of John the Baptist, but I wandered a bit through the Christmas story to get to him and ended up thinking about what it takes to exact significant change in our lives.

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When we read Matthew’s description of John the Baptist and the things he said to the people who came to be baptized in the Jordan River, where they were all gathered out in the middle of the wilderness, it’s a fair to ask, why are we focusing on him as we mark this Advent Sunday dedicated to hope?

For that matter, Advent is a season of anticipation for the birth of Jesus and our reading is the account of the one announcing the beginning of Jesus’ ministry as a thirty-year-old man. Why are we telling this story now?

For one thing, Matthew doesn’t spend that much time telling us about Jesus’ birth or infancy or childhood. He commits all of seven verses to what we know as the Christmas story, and most of those are about how Joseph reacted to the news that Mary was pregnant. Then Matthew spends a whole chapter talking about the Magi and the things their visit set in motion. (We will look at those stories at Epiphany.) Then he moves directly to John and the things Jesus said and did as an adult.

With that in mind, before we talk about John let’s back up to Matthew’s account of the birth because we can make an important connection there. (Matthew’s primary focus is Joseph; we will hear from Mary next week.)

This is Matthew 1:18-23.

This is how the birth of Jesus Christ took place. When Mary his mother had been betrothed to Joseph, but before they were married, she was found to have a child in her womb through the Holy Spirit. Joseph, her husband-to-be, being a decent man and not wanting to publicly humiliate her, planned to call off their betrothal quietly. But when he thought carefully about these things, an messenger from God appeared to him in a dream and said, “Joseph son of David, don’t be afraid to take Mary as your wife, because the child she carries is from the Holy Spirit. She will give birth to a son, and you will call him Jesus, because he will rescue the people from their offences.” Now all of this took place to fulfill what God had spoken through the prophet: Look! A young girl will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and they will call him by the name Emmanuel, the translation of which means, “God is with us.”

God is with us. As we engage this story in our time and in our culture, it helps to remember that the basic understanding of history in the Hebrew Bible is that the people strayed from God and then God rescued or redeemed them. The name Jesus, in fact, is from the root of the word for rescue or salvation. Whatever happened, they trusted that God was with them.

Joseph (and perhaps Mary) needed to be reminded of that by the messenger because all he could see was dead-end circumstance. The woman he wanted to marry was pregnant. The life they had anticipated—whatever that was—was not going to happen. The angel didn’t tell him any differently, other than to say for him to not break the betrothal. Stay for the birth and name the boy “God is with us,” then stay for the marriage and trust that the name will hold up.

That sense of God’s presence matters when we take a larger view of Hebrew history. It helps to keep in mind is that the Hebrew people lived through a number of exiles and oppressions over many centuries, facing circumstances where the life they had anticipated didn’t happen. A good deal of their story as it is told in the Hebrew Bible centers around those experiences. Often, the way the people understood their difficulties was that they had done something wrong to cause their exile. That’s not necessarily what God said to them, but it was often what they heard. In most every case, the main message that God continued to send was one of redemption, offering the people a chance to repent and start over.

Which brings us to John the Baptist.

The historical moment into which he stepped when he started calling people to repentance and baptism was another moment of oppression and struggle. The Romans were brutal rulers, as we will see when come back to the story of the Magi. John’s invitation for them to make changes sounded like the prophets they had heard about in Bible stories who gave people hope beyond feeling like life was difficult because they had sinned. They could make changes that mattered if they were willing to trust God was with them and see what would happen next.

He was calling them to hope, to trust that the choices they made mattered, even if they couldn’t see how that would all work out. He called them to change their purpose, to change their hearts and lives, to start anew with what they thought God could do through them.

In the centuries since John walked in the wilderness, that sense of that kind of hope hasn’t changed. None of us knows for sure what is going to happen, or how things will work out. What we can do to affect whatever is coming is to make thoughtful, dare I say prayerful choices about what we say, do, and feel; about how we treat other people; about how we spend our time and our money; about how we live out our trust that God is with us.

How, then, can we change our purpose, change our hearts, so that Christ can be born anew in our time?

That’s a big question that doesn’t necessarily require a global answer. I’m not asking how we change the world as much as how we change ourselves because that is how the world actually gets changed. Hope requires specificity, so here are three specific things to consider.

First, I invite you to daydream about who God wants you to be and what God wants you to do within your spheres of influences. Are you doing the work you feel that is most true to yourself? How can you affect the primary relationships in your life? Who do you feel call to become?

As you hold that question, I ask you to think of one specific element of your life that you would like to change, that you would like to repent. Let me offer an example. Most every fall is difficult for me because the shrinking daylight is like rocket fuel for my depression. I spend most of November and December feeling crushed by the weight of it all and doing what I can to hold on till the Solstice and the promise of longer days.

Thanks to some suggestion I read or heard somewhere, I decided to commit to getting up morning at around five so that I was awake for the sunrise. I make the coffee and I sit at my desk, which is in front of a window, and I watch the dawn break as I do the crossword and then read. Somehow that change has given me new life. I have had a burst of creative energy rather than feeling like I was falling into a hole.

Let me be clear: depression is not a sin. It has been something in my life that has kept me from being my full self, from being able to see that I am wonderfully and uniquely created in the image of God and worthy to be loved. The change I have made—my repentance, if you will—has not been because I did something wrong as much as I changed a behavior to make me more available to the world and to God.

Repentance can have a number of faces, so let me ask the question again. What one specific element of your life would you like to change?

The last question requires us to think about our lives together. What change do you think needs to happen in one element of your communal life—here in this church, in your neighborhood, in Hamden, at work—that you can contribute to with a change in what you say and do, or how you spend your time and resources?

We will go from this service to share a meal and talk about our budget for the coming year, which is actually a discussion about who we are as a congregation and who we think God is calling us to be. Do we have ways in which we need to change our purpose or change our hearts?

The hope that underlies repentance is that when we change ourselves we change the world. May we live boldly into that kind of hope. Amen.

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: preparing

preparing

today has been
a day of preparation

baking cookies for
a coffee house concert
tomorrow night

a breakfast casserole
for the church brunch
after our budget meeting
also tomorrow

a third and fourth
revision of my sermon

and practicing
my new advent carol
as much as my hands
would let me after
all the cooking

not everything was
for other days

I should have said
my first move
was to make
some clam chowder
that simmered through
most of the morning

and after tomorrow
was taken care of

it was ready
to feed us as
we called it a day

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: first friday

first friday

it’s the first Friday
in December
and in our little
snow globe town
which means we light
the evergreen tree
on the Town Green

crowds gather
and the traffic jams
for no other reason
than we have
decided it matters
to all be together
to flip the switch

the evening is
electric because
of what gets
handed down
and all that is
connected to the
lights on the tree

otherwise the
stories would fall
away like most of
the other leaves and
our hearts would
be bare like branches
for the winter

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: light blankets

light blankets

I was the last one
out of the building
tonight after our
service of silence
and singing

the songs were
handed down chants
the silence was marked
by a blanket of candles
on the communion table

I blew them out
turned off the lights
and stepped out
to find the parking lot
basking in moonlight

a celestial blanket
of wonder and warmth
that held me in my tracks
and in my silence
and then it sent me home

Peace,
MIlton

advent journal: road rules

road rules

People owe us what we imagine they will give us. We must forgive them this debt.
— Simone Weil

when the lanes drop
forcing us to merge
a simple errand trip
becomes a standoff
rather than the chance
to accept an invitation
to join the choreography
of cooperation

my stubbornness
will not save any time
nor move the line along
but I will have my place
what a shame
it would have been
to be forced to ride
one car further back

Peace,
Milton

advent journal: eyewitness

advent journal: eyewitness

in my quest to counter
the gathering gloom
as the nights grow longer
and the daylight disappears

I have made a point
of being up everyday
before sunrise to see
the dawn break

right before my eyes
to try and counter the
inevitable arrival of
my autumnal depression

it’s less about daylight and dark
and more about finding
the rhythm of the dance
in my bones my heartbeat

though the dawn doesn’t
need me for the day to begin
I can feel something rise
even break open within me

as I sit and watch the light
sneak the day into being
knowing full well
that it will not last long

nothing is changed by
my attention other than me
I claim no great victory
just the joy of being awake

Peace,
Milton

 

advent journal: how we tell the story

As I begin another year of writing each day during Advent, beginning with the sermon I preached this morning seems right. It is where the season is starting for me: in the shared space of life in my congregation. I am not following the lectionary this week and took Isaiah 35:1-10 as the jumping off spot for my words, looking at the way stories get lived and retold as we seek to continue to learn from them. Happy Advent.

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When I say the word prophet, what images come to mind?

The word itself comes from roots that mean “before-teller,” “harbinger,” or “proclaimer,” all of them carrying the idea of one who speaks for God. Down the years, the word has also come to carry the idea of one who predicts what’s going to happen in the future, but that misses the mark because, though they are talking about what might happen, or maybe even what will happen, most of what prophets say carries a note warning or perhaps admonition, to call people to action.

As one of my seminary professors said, the biblical prophets were “forth-tellers” not “foretellers.” They weren’t reading crystal balls; they were interpreting the consequences of the present. Sometimes they offered words of correction, or even judgment. At other times, as in our reading today, they offered words of hope and encouragement.

Isaiah was a forth-teller who spoke to the Judean people during a time of exile when they were far away from their homeland and had been for many years. When he spoke about the dry lands being joyful and the wilderness blooming, he was doing more than giving them an image-filled pep talk. He was not an optimist telling the people the sun will come out tomorrow. He knew change wasn’t going to come quick, necessarily, and he wanted the people to remember—to trust—that God had not abandoned them; and then to live like God had not abandoned them, to be open to the future and the possibility that God could bring about significant change in and through them.

“Through them” is key to the whole idea because the way God brings about change is with and through people who trust that it is possible. Judea would bloom again when people went back to the burned out and abandoned land and recultivated it, when they got out and dug in the dirt and planted things. The love of God requires human incarnation in order to change the world.

Perhaps that is why those who followed Jesus leaned back into Isaiah and some of the other prophets as they began to collect and tell the stories that became the foundation of our faith, re-membering Isaiah’s words in a new way that saw Jesus’ birth as validation of the truths the prophet had spoken. Isaiah didn’t know about Jesus, but when Jesus’ followers remembered what the prophet had said, they made new connections to their own lives of faith in Christ.

Let me tell you a story to explain what I mean by that kind of re-membering.

When my father pastored in Houston, one of the children’s Sunday School teachers told him what had happened that day. She taught a class of four- or five-year-olds, and she was describing what Jesus was like—he was kind, he was friendly, he listened to people. After almost every characteristic she named, one of the little boys would raise his hand and blurt out, “I know him. He lives on my street.”

She tried to explain that Jesus lived long ago, but the little boy was unflappable: “I know him. He lives on my street.” They got through the lesson and when the little boy’s mother came to get him, the teacher told her what had happened. The mother smiled and said, “There’s an old man who lives on our street who is the kindest, gentlest, and most loving person we have ever met. Many of our neighbors have said he is more like Jesus than anyone we have ever met. So, yes, he does live on our street.”

The followers of Jesus read Isaiah and, like the little boy, said, “I know him. He lived on our streets.” They re-membered Isaiah through the lens of their present tense, of their moment of struggle and oppression and difficulty, much as we do when we come, once again, to Advent and to remember the story in our time. Our sense of exile, our feelings of despair, our grief, even our hope, are not tied to the same circumstances as the Judeans of Isaiah’s time or those of Jesus’ followers, and yet the promise that God has not deserted us still matters, and so we read ourselves into the old stories, even as we remind ourselves that there is a difference between living a story and remembering or retelling it.

One of the prophetic words I come back to most every Advent—words I quote to you every year—comes from twelfth century mystic Meister Eckhart, who said, “What good is it to us that Mary gave birth to the son of God two thousand years ago, and we do not also give birth to the Son of God in our time and in our culture? We are all meant to be mothers of God. God is always needing to be born.”

To walk through these days of Advent is about more than going through the ritual that has been handed down or lighting the candles and singing the songs because it is tradition. Most of our ways of remembering—the things we say and sing and repeat—were not a part of the actual birth of Jesus. They are memories and rituals handed down to help us re-member the story in our time.

Though we mostly talk about it as a season of waiting and anticipation, the word advent means “arrival” or “approach.” It carries its own momentum: something—someone—is coming.

These Advent Sundays as we will observe them lead us to several arrivals: next week, John the Baptist, then Mary, then Jesus, each of them calling us to ponder how we will live out our response to their arrivals, how we will incarnate the love of God in a new way in our time and in our culture, which is another way of saying how we will live out our trust that God is capable of making streams in the desert and giving sight to those who cannot see.

But how do we look at our world and honestly trust that kind of change is truly possible? Perhaps the better question is how can we afford not to trust it?

How will the world change at all if we are not willing to trust God enough to dig riverbeds and do what we can to help those around us see that they are wonderfully and uniquely created in the image of God and worthy to be loved?

We retell these stories to remind ourselves that in order of Christ to be born anew in us means we must open our hearts with expectancy for the almost unimaginable good that the love of God can accomplish in and through us in even the most unexpected places, as well as in the most common places in our lives, we must choose to let the story be re-membered in what we say and do, such that when our neighbors hear our story they, too, will say, “I know Jesus. They live on my street.” Amen.

Peace,
Milton